There’s Gotta Be More to Life

I could picture it perfectly:

Getting married. Having two kids, a dog. Living in a cute 3 bedroom 2 bath house with a small, yet manicured yard. Driving a minivan or SUV. Going to my 9-5, day in and day out… watching the clock everyday, wishing time would go by faster. I could do that. I could be happy. I could settle.

But, I’d always want more. I’d always dream of more, hope for me, long for more…

That is why I need to go to New York, why I must do this internship. I have to see what else is out there. I can’t let the fear of the unknown stop me from achieving my goals and dreams. Even if I go there and end up hating New York, hating MTV, hating the entertainment industry… at least I’ll know. I’ll never have to wonder what it “could have” been. The thought of passing up this opportunity and regretting it later is scarier to me than moving 3,000 miles away to a big city alone.

If I only have this life to live, I’m going to make my mark on this world. =)

Patience is a Virtue

Waiting is hard. Waiting to hear back from my internship coordinator about the details of my internship. Waiting to hear back from e-mails I’ve sent out inquiring about apartment sublets. Waiting, waiting, waiting.

A friend once told me that we spend the majority of our lives “waiting”. When we are young, we cannot wait to get out of school. Once we are out of school, we cannot wait to get our first real job (and the salary that comes with it). Then, we cannot wait to get married, have kids.. Can’t wait to retire.. Then we just wait around and die… ?

Think about it: Right now, I bet the majority of us are waiting for Christmas… waiting for finals to be over… waiting for that week-long vacation… waiting to get out of church service… waiting until our shift is over… waiting for our next paycheck… waiting for this week to be over…

How often are we actually content with our situation? How often do we live in the moment? How often do we enjoy the precious time we are given on Earth?

Instead of always looking ahead to the future and avoiding the present, maybe we should take the time to appreciate the experiences we are blessed with each day.